I will seriously kill Tey for making the first line of Ironic my official weekend LSS. An old man turned chardonnay. Nobody can crack me up the way Tey could. Oh, somebody else could, which brings me to the next topic.

I am crushing on this guy right now, who's a cross between somebody I really loved in the past and somebody I am madly in love with at present, which kinda qualifies him as my perfect match. This is a serious problem.

Help.

On this early Sunday morning, I am seriously contemplating a drastic change in my life.

Haven't posted here in a while, because, erm, I've been very busy. But I really was surprised to read Jessica Zafra's review of BFF. Usually kasi, pag Star Cinema movie, grabe agad sya mang-bash pero nagulat talaga ako this time around. Here you go.

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TWO GIRLS, A GUY, 1000 GAGS
Jessica Zafra (from www.jessicarulestheuniverse.com)

BFF opens with a Tagalog movie cliche: the dead man in his coffin, his grieving wife (Sharon Cuneta) standing by, primly dressed in white, his mistress (Ai-Ai de las Alas) arriving all dressed in black topped with a veil. Confrontation is in the air: you wait for wife and mistress to unleash the zingers, it’s all very trite. But director Wenn Deramas proceeds to thwart your expectations. This star vehicle pairing the box-office champions of the 80s-90s and the 00s is funny and sometimes clever—it gives the audience what they want while making fun of their illusions.
 

I am reminded of a scene in Ishmael Bernal’s underrated sex-comedy Salawahan. (Yes, I’m invoking Bernal in a review of a Star Cinema product.) In this bit, naughty sex researcher Rita Gomez runs into cosmopolitan designer Sandy Andolong, whose boyfriend Jay Ilagan she has just seduced. The two bitches consider each other.
 

Rita Gomez: Magko-confrontation ba tayo?
Sandy Andolong: Huwag na, nakakapagod.
 

BFF has a little of that playfulness. Along with a ton of stupid gags, but it’s there. Sharon plays a devoted mother married to John Estrada, who is banging the gym dance instructor played by Ai-Ai. So Sharon decides to enroll at a gym, and as cinematic laws of probability would have it, Ai-Ai becomes her coach and BFF. How do two capable women manage to avoid discovering that they’re talking about the same man? The filmmakers mine this unbelievable premise for laughs—there’s a moment of true absurdity when the revelation is foiled by cellphone snatchers. You have to approve of a movie that says, “The problem is not that your wife’s gotten fat or your mistress jumped you in a moment of weakness. The problem is that you’re a dog.” Apologies to actual canines.
 

Of course there are the requisite parodies of Sharon movies. The biggest hommage is reserved for the ending. Don’t blink.
 

(Fabia says Ai-Ai’s Ina Mo movies are funnier.)

Kung merong pa-contest sa universe na pa-kontian ng total number ng hours of sleep in a week, please po, sabihan nyo naman po ako. Baka ikayaman ko ang antok ko. Pero pramis, antok na antok nako, tapos natatakot ako kasi parang may invisible figure na nagsasabi saking hindi pa ako makakatulog anytime soon. Well, tama naman sya. Pero Papa Jesus, inaantok na po talaga ako. Please make miracles and give me time to sleep.

May secret akong sasabihin. Pero secret lang kasi baka ika-bother ng maraming tao. E konti lang naman ang nagbabasa ng blog ko rito kasi lahat adik sa Multiply. Kaninang umaga, nagda-drive ako. Tapos parang robot na lang ako, di na nag-iisip. Pag may kotse sa harap, e di mag-brake. Pag may red light, brake. Pag wala, e di go lang sa gas. As in lutang lang. Hanggang umabot ako sa intersection sa Quezon Avenue, bago ka umabot ng EDSA, dun sa may Agham. Red light. E di stop nga diba, so tumigil ako. Tapos kamusta naman yun, nakatulog ako. As in nakatulog ako. Buti na lang, ni-neutral ko ang kotse at hinand-brake ko. Pagkagising ko, umaandar na lahat ng kotse at binubusinahan nako.

Naiiyak ako kasi hindi ko alam kung ano pang mas masaklap na pwedeng mangyari in the future dahil sa antok ko.

Please Lord. Patulugin nyo na po ako.

"What's done is done and we've crossed the line
Your indecision is taking over everytime
Your pride, my anger
Our situation is worse than ever
We've taken this too far
We've had our run
With your arms wrapped tight around my neck
Close my eyes, I sink and grasp for breath
She's with someone new"
- Guillotine, Urbandub

Ayoko nang malungkot. Tigilan na ang emo entries kasi masayang-masaya ako kagabi. Super late nako nagising kasi naman mga 2am na ata ako nakauwi. At dahil tinatamad na akong mag-isip pa ng blog entry, ika-copy-paste ko na lang ang blog entry ni Lorena Flor "Apol" Dating. Hehe. Dabest talaga kayong dalawa ni Kacey. Ultimate antidepressants. With friends like you, who needs coke?

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ansaya lang ng araw na to. valentines day with friends.  buti na lang hindi natuloy yung edit ko ke ditsi kaya nagkapanahon ako makapagrelaks more. friendship day with kriz and kacey for this month.

dinaanan ako dito ni kriz at nagdrive kami papuntang makati. it's an achievement for kriz bilang takot talaga sya magdrive papuntang makati dahil hindi nya alam yung lugar.  buti na lang sunday.

nagdinner kami sa banana leaf. grabe dabest yung pagkain. at mas dabest pag libre. haha. thanks kriz!

dumating si kacey straight from tarlac with all her dala-dalahang malaking paper bag with tarlac things in it. tapos nagkape kami sa coffe bean and tea leaf. shempre hindi mawawala ang forever chismisan ng mga ganap sa buhay namin at sa buhay ng ibang tao. namiss ko yun. antagal na rin nung huli kami nagkitakits eh. masyadong busy kasi lahat sa mga trabaho. buti na lang talaga this sunday happened.

bilang feel namin ni kriz manood ng sine, napilit namin si kacey pero sinunod namin yung suggestion nya na marley and me.  so bili lang ng ticket tapos nagtime zone muna kami.  ayus din magtimezone pala. kakarelieve ng stress. peyborit ko na yung nambabato ng things. haha nakalimutan ko tawag. basta yun.

anyway. so marley and me no. potek. nakakapagod yung pelikula. antagal matapos eh. antay kami nang antay ng malupet na conflict. but no. walang ganun. parang ang highlight lang nung sine for me ay yung ending, as in yung palabas na kami ng sine at nakasalubong namin sina lucky m. at angel l. grabe ang ganda ni angel sobra. yun lang.  sana nanood na lang kami ng valkyrie.


hay. wala man kaming valentines, masaya pa rin ako na feel na feel ko yung spirit nya. mula feb 13 hanggang 15 ansaya lang eh. feel na feel ko yung love sa career, lablayp, at friendship aspect. super thanks guys. sa inyong lahat na parte ng buhay ko.  you know who you are.  mahal ko kayo.  as in. 

at para sayo, my friend na mahilig sa silent sanctuary, eto lang...

minsan life sucks talaga. pero phase lang yan. you'll get over it in time. everything's gonna be okay. don't worry. andito lang kami palagi for you. jai ho! hehe.

Naaalala ko nung bata ako, tuwing malungkot ako, lalabas lang ako ng bahay at maghahanap ng kalaro. Kapag may nahanap akong isa, usually, teks ang laro. Pag dalawa naman sila, pwedeng mag 10-20 o kaya piko. Pag marami kami, parating taguan o kaya shake shake shampoo o kaya monkey monkey annabelle o kaya langit-lupa. Special event samin ang patintero. Tamad kasi kaming gumawa ng guhit sa kalsada. Pagkatapos namin maglaro, pag-uwi ko ng bahay, masaya na ulit ako.

Ngayon, habang ang buong mundo ay pine-presyur ng araw na maglampungan at mag-ibigan, naghanap ako ng dalawang single na kaibigan na pwede kong makalaro. At dahil masyado na kaming matanda para mag-10-20, nag-Timezone na lang kami. Grabe talaga ang high na nadudulot sakin ng lugar na yun. Parang simple lang lahat. Ilalaro mo lang ang lungkot mo tapos biglang mawawala.

Ang problema nga lang, di tulad nung bata pa ako, pag-uwi ko, malungkot pa rin ako. Sana pwedeng choice na lang ng tao na di na tumanda, Sana lahat simple lang. Sana lahat na lang tayo masaya.

Sana naging totoo na lang ang Lacuna. Sana may mga alaalang pwedeng mabura. Sana may mga emosyong pwedeng hindi mo na lang maramdaman. Sana may mga taong pwede mo na lang kalimutan.

Pero hindi. Kaya kelangang ikaw ang umeport na kumalimot. Kaya makikinig ka sa isang malupet na kantang walang kinalaman sa nararamdaman mo. Tapos pagbukas mo ng iPod mo, Rebound ang unang kantang makikita mo. Tapos dahil hindi ka naman rebound e feeling mo ayus lang, kaya pakikinggan mo. Tapos hindi pala. Ma-rerealize mo na bawat linya ng kantang yon e parang isinulat para sayo, inaasar ka.

Fuchsiang pag-ibig.

Hindi pa kasi diretsuhin. Putang pag-ibig. Putang inang pag-ibig.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Kapag pala deprived ka of sleep, nagiging mas in touch ka with your inner self. Parang lahat ng emosyon napa-process mo, except kasiyahan. Hindi ata posibleng maging masaya ang taong walang tulog. Pero posibleng magalit, mainis at syempre, masaktan.

Ngayon ko lang na-realize, kaya siguro magaling umarte ang mga artista no? Kasi parati silang puyat.

Inaantok nako.

Hindi ko na kasi alam. Naka-lock-in ako this week kasi may kelangang tapusing sequence treatment. Pero kelan ko pa ring bumalik-balik ng office kasi andaming ibang concerns sa ibang projects. So I'm surviving this week through power naps and junk food (and that includes fastfood). Supersize me. Tumataba ulit tuloy ako.

Gusto ko nang matuloooooooooooooooooog...

...at paggising ko, Friday night na.

Hayyyy.

I haven't blogged here in LJ since October 2008. Kamusta naman. And to think na mas LJ advocate ako than Multiply. Ang saya pala bumalik dito, parang homecoming. Ang nostalgic ng feeling. Andami kasing tao sa Multiply kaya mas masaya mag-post dun kasi feeling mo nababasa ng buong mundo. Pero I'm not sure if I'm the only one feeling this pero parang wala kang sense of ownership with your Multiply site. For some reason, you post entries there, you can even lock them pero they don't just feel yours. Unlike here in LJ, it really feels like it's your personal space. Iba pa rin ang feeling when you come home to your blog that you opened since 2004. Wow, 5 years na akong blogger.

Ganun din eksakto ang feeling when you go back to a very special person na college ka pa lang e kinahuhumalingan mo na. Sabi nga ni Missy Higgins, "Time has changed nothing at all, you're still the only one that feels like home." Ang overwhelming ng pagmamahal na nararamdaman ko para sa taong to. Siguro kasi this time around, there's absolutely nothing that can stop me. Dati kasi, andaming factor. Parang hindi pa ako sure kung kras lang or something more na. Hindi rin tama ang timing. E kung paniniwalaan natin si Wong Kar-Wai na love is all about timing, e di hindi talaga magwowork-out. Pero iba lang yung feeling ngayon, parang tama ang lahat. Sana tama rin ako. Ayus lang kung hindi. Basta mahal ko sya. At sabi niya, mahal din daw niya ako. Kebs na kung di kami magkatugma ng depinisyon ng love. Ang importante, may love involved. Masaya nako run.

Salamat sa pagiging endorphin ko. Ang sarap lang ng feeling na kahit isang linggo kang nagpepenitensya sa office, there's always one important person you can always come home to.

BREAK.

I wish that I would be given 24 hours entirely for myself. No work. Not even a single soul bothering you. If there's one thing I absolutely deserve right now apart from a lovelife, it's a break.

And I don't understand why something this simple is so difficult to have.

BROKE.

To make matters worse, I am so broke. I've never been this broke since I started working. To give you a clear picture of how penniless I am right now, I am operating on my parents' pautang until payday comes. And what's even more depressing is the fact that I have to pay them on the 30th, and I'm not even sure if I could because I have a lot of bills to worry about.

It also doesn't help that there are just a lot of films that I've been wanting to watch at Cinemanila but I couldn't afford to. Ticket price + gas or cab fare going home is just too much for me right now. I should start to learn how to save up. Or get another job. Whichever comes first.

BROKEN.

As promised, I tried but I just couldn't.

If I gave up everything, including Dennis, will you change your mind?

Sana oo.

Ang hirap simulan ng blog entry na 'to.

Bottom line, hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit Sparrow (directed by Johnny To) ang opening film ng Cinemanila. After watching it, I scoured my memory, replaying the film in my head and tried to look for a deeper meaning to what I've watched, kasi hindi ko matanggap na ganun lang sya kababaw. Pero may iba palang way to analyze a film. Hindi pala parating intellectual. Pwede palang experiential. It's the other way around, not your typical this is the movie, then you get the point then you experience it. You watch the movie, then you experience something first then you relate it to the film tapos you understand the point.

Because that's exactly what happened to me last night. Ang hirap mag-detalye. Basta. Siguro this is the part that I should keep to myself. Let's fast forward to what I learned.

I learned that there are things in life that are so beautiful and so important to you that you want them to be yours, but they can hurt you so much, without intentionally doing so, that in the end, you have no other choice but to let them go.

Kaya ako, gusto kong kausapin kung sino man yung "The Man Who Can't Be Moved" (The Script). Kasi what if hindi na talaga magpakita sa kanya yung girl? Ganun ba talaga niya kamahal yung babae at dun na lang sya forever, dumating lang yung girl? Hindi na siya maliligo? Hindi na siya papasok sa work? Hindi na siya manonood ng movie ever hanggang dumating lang yung taong mahal niya?

Kasi kung oo ang sagot niya sa lahat ng tanong ko, gusto ko siyang sabihang ako na lang. The girl isn't deserving at all of her love.

...is being nominated in the 2008 Gawad Urian!

Haha, kamusta naman? Nominated pala ang Maria Maria (my college thesis) as Best Short Film for the Gawad Urian this year. Hindi ko man lang nalaman. Nag-text na lang sa akin si Emman at kino-congratulate ako. Sayaaaang! Once in a lifetime ka na nga lang ma-nominate, hindi ka pa naka-attend sa awards night.

Pero keri lang. Yehey! Malapit na ang Oscar! Hehe.

WARNING: SPOILERS AHEAD.

Ayoko na sana manood kanina ng Amazing Race kasi antok na antok na ako but I've been itching to see Nick and Starr kasi from the site pa lang talaga, naintriga nako sa kanila (and yeah, from the pic pa lang, I really found Nick cute). And true enough, ang cute nga nilang dalawa as a team, although nairita lang ako na unang leg e mag-form daw ba ng alliance. Anubayun. May mom and dad gimik pa sila. Di ko gets. Pero hangkyut ni Nick. Not to mention that he looks so gay kasi naman, maki-cheerdance daw ba with the sister?

At bukod sa cute si Nick, isang napakabuting pangitain na ang first leg ay ginanap sa aking pinaka-peyborit na bansa in the whole world, BRAZEEEEEL! Sana nag-Rio sila, pero keri lang naman sa Salvador. Grabe ang hotness ng mga tao sa Brazil, wala akong masabi. Ultimong yung militar dun sa military base who asked them to sign up for the departure times the next day e hotness talaga.

Lastly, I'm so happy Team Jollibee is out. Mukha namang they're very nice people pero I'm sorry, naba-bother talaga ako sa white hair nila sa mukha. Parang iniisip ko nga kanina, pag di pa sila na-eliminate sa episode na to, ibig sabihin everytime magfa-flash ang mga mukha nila on screen, maiirita ako? So yun, happy naman that they got booted out na.

Yun lang naman. Just had to share all my thoughts bago ako matulog. Good night.

Namimiss ko na po si Tez Cruz.

OA na pagka-miss. OA talaga.

Lord, sana po bigyan niyo kami ng chance ni Tez Cruz na makapag-bonding ulit, gaya ng dati, kasi miss na miss ko na po sya talaga.

Amen.

Napanaginipan ko si Dennis Trillo kagabi.

Oo, si Dennis. Na kahit sandamakmak ang mga taong nagustuhan ko o inibig ko, walang sinuman ang papantay sa nararamdaman ko para kay Dennis. Nakakatuwa at nakakalungkot dahil napakasaya ng panaginip ko. Sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon, nagkita raw kami ni Dennis. Tapos nagkakilala kami. Tapos hinalikan daw nya ako sa pisngi ng tatlong beses. Tapos magkasama lang kami buong araw. Magkatabing natulog. At sa buong panaginip ko, nakalimutan ko lahat. Wala raw akong ibang nararamdaman. Ang alam ko lang, masayang-masaya ako dahil kasama ko ang kaisa-isang lalaking minahal ko nang todo. Walang sinabi si Dennis sa panaginip ko. Ni hindi sya nagsalita. Pero kahit hindi ko narinig sa kanya na ganun din ang nararamdaman niya para sa kin, wala na akong pakialam. Sapat na sa akin na kahit isang araw, kaming dalawa lang ang magkasama.

Sana may choice ang taong wag na lang gumising mula sa isang panaginip. Sana ang panaginip, extension ng tunay na buhay. Sana pwede mong kontrolin na manatili ka na lang dun at hindi na bumalik sa realidad. Sana pwedeng hindi ka na lang magising at makasama mo na lang ang taong mahal mo habambuhay, kahit sa panaginip lang.

After days of stress and sleepless nights, I am just so happy that The Amazing Race Asia premiered tonight.

In all fairness, they kept their promise of making this the toughest race ever. For a pilot episode, I must say that the tasks given were really tough.

I love this season so much. What sets this batch of racers apart from the previous seasons is their personality. Everyone seems to be interesting. I'm in love with Team Philippines. I didn't know Geoff could be that funny and Tisha could be that vain (e kamusta naman ang pagpapowder nya everytime na may break?). I love Team Thailand. Is it just me? Oliver looks really, really familiar. Parang feeling ko lumabas na sya in a Sprite or Coke commercial in the past. I also like Team Korea, kasi ang cute cute ni William. Mukha syang baby. Ang sarap kurutin ng pisngi. Interesting din si Ida and Tania, yung mga sosyal na mayayamang ang last bus ride daw nila ay sa Oxford at 1 and a half hours lang. Nakakaloka. Funny rin super yung beauty queens, while they're cleaning the bus, kamusta naman ang hirit, "My maid is gonna be proud of me."

Ang saya ng away ni Mai at Oliver. I googled Oliver. Married na raw sya. Di kaya nagseselos ngayon yung asawa ni Oliver kay Mai? And as usual, cuteness pa rin naman si Allan Wu, lalo na dun sa naka-black sando lang sya and pants.

In fairness, I thought non-elimination leg na naman ang pilot episode. Bilang parating ginagawa yun ng Amazing Race Asia. Na-sasad ako. Kasi favorite ko talaga ang SOCO. At bilang mukhang every Thursday ay 12mn ko na mapapanood talaga ang TARA, nalulungkot ako na I have to give up SOCO. Huhuhu. Sana may adik na nag-you-youtube ng SOCO episodes.

Ubos na lahat ng energy ko sa katawan but I can still find time to go online and blog about this. I mean, come on, an event like this, you can't just let it pass without a blog entry.

Anyways, you all know what happened to the concert. It was cut short because Ely Buendia got rushed to the hospital due to his recent series of physical and emotional stress, as explained by his sister, who I thought would break down while reading her speech. I honestly, honestly thought she's going to announce that Eraserheads will finally reunite and have another album. Or that Ely extends his apologies to all their fans because the band was uhm, disbanded. But no. Ely being so ill he had to give up and end the concert wasn't really the first thing that came into my mind, although Carmi already had speculations about Ely's health condition.

But man. First time lang tong mangyayari. There are no second chances (unless they agree to hold another concert again in the future which I doubt). Ang babaw lang ng rantage ko kasi hindi ko narinig yung mga totoong gusto kong Eheads songs. (I have no idea why they played Kama Supra and Shake Yer Head first, well kasi nga siguro, save the best for last) Pero syempre naman, kung hindi na makakanta ang tao iisipin ko pa ba yung mga kantang hindi nila tinugtog e pwede ko naman pakinggan sa iPod ko 24/7?

The concert ended in a prayer. Ang baba ng spirits ng lahat afterwards. As in the announcer had to ask everyone to leave the concert grounds 3 times in 1 minute. Everyone was just standing still and discussing. I'm sure 95% of them were ranting that they didn't even hear Ang Huling El Bimbo. Ako Spoliarium lang ang hinintay ko, hindi ko pa narinig.

I really pray for Ely's health. Sana he could recover soon. And when he does, I hope he realizes the need for another reunion concert. Pero dang. Ang saya talaga ng concert, I mean keber na that it was cut short. Kasi iba eh. Iba pala makinig sa bandang kinalakihan mo. E nung bata ka pa syempre di ka pa pwede pumunta sa gigs. Diba? I mean I admit not being able to see Eheads in any gig in the past. So this reunion concert was like holykettlecorn. When the fireworks danced their way during "Alapaap", I thought I was in Disneyland. Ang sarap pala ng feeling na lahat kayong magkakatabi e kumakanta nang sabay-sabay. If there's one thing that this concert really proved, it's that Eraserheads remains and will continue to be a legend in our music history.

Matutulog na ako. "Huwag kang matakot na matulog mag-isa, kasama mo naman akooooo...."

P.S. Thanks to Carms, Gino, Tey, Prime, Jen and Apol. Spending the Eheads night with you guys made the night even more wonderful.

I have no idea why it happened but I dreamt I was kidnapped by the Abu Sayyaf last night. So naging captive ako (sa pagkakaalala ko, my family's there too). Pero parang when they kidnapped me, last day na raw yun ng kidnapping spree nila. At pakakawalan na rin daw kami soon.

But this is what's so weird and funny at the same time. Sabi ko raw, para pakawalan ako ng mga captors ko, tuturuan ko yung kumander nila to be a better Wowowee host than Willie. Then the kumander agreed to free me.

Anuraaaaaw? I don't get the dream talaga. I wasn't even thinking of Abu Sayyaf or Willie before I slept, as in kahit for a second lang na thought, wala talaga.

I now find the fun again in posting in LJ. Parang ang dami kasing tao sa Multiply.